Date: 2007-07-25 21:48 Subject: Kinda sad Security: Public Mood: sad Music: Marija Šerifović - Molitva

Cancer of the colon - my first partner died from it. There has to be more we can do? :(

Date: 2007-06-18 19:11 Subject: ... .... ... ...... Security: Public

I feel lost

Date: 2007-03-15 15:19 Subject: Finally, a post! Security: Public

Well, it's been a long time since I last wrote anything.

Here we are, already into March of 2006.

For the record, this year has seen a great many changes. I finally left Leeds University; I had no choice, my contract was up with no more in sight.

I went and got a job at Malvern Instruments, down in Worcestershire; which means I had to leave Leeds. While I still talk to all of my mates online, I really really do miss the city, and my house.

The new house cost double the price of the old house, but it's in Malvern, which is a REALLY exclusive part of the country. It's full of old people and rich people, and it's really really beautiful.

And I hate my job.  I'm a receptionist.  It sux

Date: 2006-01-02 23:49 Subject: Incarnations of Immortality Security: Public Mood: sick Music: Queens of the Stone Age - Little Sister

Heya, I hope everyone had a good Christmas and new year. I'm glad I'm back in Leeds! :)


Death becomes you. Because you are the incarnation
of death, also known by the name spoken by
trembling lips... THANATOS! No, you're not all
that bad. It's not like you actually kill
humans, you just take the souls that need
measuring for heaven or hell. But damn, you are
SO misunderstood!


What Incarnation of Immortality are you? (wonderful pictures)
brought to you by Quizilla

Date: 2005-12-18 01:34 Subject: Insomnia? Security: Public Mood: melancholy Music: No Ordinary Morning - Chicane

Why can't I go to sleep? I don't have any reason why I shouldn't. Not really.

2005 has been a strange year. It started out badly wity the Tsunami in South-East Asia, then bad things came closer to home with so many awful things happening to family and friends.

For those that don't know, I was told there was a 75% chance that I had cancer. So of course, I started to tie my loose ends together and think about selling up and stuff... and lo and behold. I recieve all the luck in the world and it turns out it's not cancer! I still have the same symptoms, but it's not the big C. All of my lucky numbers came in that day.

So, the Gods in a fit of pique, decide to put my dad's job in jeopardy (he works at LDV in Birmingham). Well it turns out that LDV has been bought out, but the pensions are still in danger. That's 25 years worth of pension for my dad who's a hairs breath short of 60. Finding another job chance? Neh

So that was a few days ago.

Then today, my dad's uncle dies. What? Did my family tread on some cosmic ant so we're all reaping our rewards triple big time? Or is it just fricking happenstance.

Or some joke

Sometimes, belief in something greater than us all is so very hard.

I played DAoC with maviscruet and a few others on Thursday night. Fab time. Never played in such a game before. Completely different to CoH/CoV. Mistakes are punished much more severely. Especially if you're not used to the completely laggy controls. It's SO crude in comparison to *ahem* newer games. But it was a lot of fun. Buff buff buff buff *Mave keep still, I losing track of my buffs* buff buff disease dead.

I owe Mave an apology.... for some n00b error I made during the game. Only his character would have felt the error.

Invited a load of people over on Monday to watch Serenity. *I am a leaf on the wind* Should be good....

Date: 2005-12-17 22:56 Subject: Stoopid quiz Security: Public

Damnit, I DEMAND a recount!

Date: 2005-12-17 22:48 Subject: Geek? Security: Public Music: Screaming kill kill inside my head

Surely not a surprise here then!

Date: 2005-12-13 11:43 Subject: WoW character Security: Public Mood: jubilant Music: None

What a shock!

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Gnome Warlock

Gnomes are strange little things. Fascinated with gadgets and shiny things, gnomes are often plotting and planning - but are pretty smart, despite all the explosions. You're a creepy, creepy warlock. You delight in the darker things in life - such as setting people on fire, and delight in the macabre. You'd probably fake your own death just to freak people out by getting up from the casket at your funeral.

Find out your real-life WoW race and class at QuizGalaxy.com

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Date: 2005-11-09 12:13 Subject: Seminar? Security: Public Mood: energetic Music: The Beatles - Don't know what it is but it's in my head

Well! The seminar was a roaring success. Fantastic feedback. I'm sure I have a few grey hairs becasue of it. My boss failed to turn up to give the opening address, so I got a different prof to do it. The following two presentations had video bits which failed to work, they blamed my laptop which (if you know me), is impossible cos my laptop is kinda fantastic and does everything.

I found that the stupid academics were still linking the presentation to video files located on the network drives back at the home university. Still, they had to do without.

Went really well actually. I'm SO glad it's over.

Date: 2005-11-02 14:49 Subject: PAT Poll Security: Public

I need some freeware poll software for the work website. Anyone have any good ones? (Unlike the poll below)

Date: 2005-10-27 21:53 Subject: What a shock Security: Public Mood: scared Music: None

McKay: Shut up and think quick, if you lived on
Atlantis you'd be spending your time with Dr
Rodney McKay and neither of you would have a
moment to spare if you're working on some
doohickey with the potential to determine life
or death...


Who would be your best Stargate Atlantis buddy?
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I'm off to the hospital tomorrow, so this is what I've been doing all day to take my mind off it. My brains are dribbling out of my ears!

Date: 2005-10-21 11:45 Subject: Dark Age of Camelot Security: Public Mood: mellow

Ok, I bought it.

I don't know why. It arrived yesterday.

Date: 2005-10-20 12:01 Subject: Work and stuff Security: Public Mood: chipper Music: None

Well, I was dragged back to the doctors again this morning. That's 4 times in 7 days. They took more blood, this time to check my hormones. Good news was that I'm not anaemic, diabetic, don't carry any STD's nor have I thyroid problems. The other swab type tests came back ok. I have another check up next week, for the blood pressure, and then it's off to hospital for some ultrasound.

(No, I'm not pregnant!!)

So yeah, feeling kind of chipper.

Date: 2005-10-16 20:58 Subject: Obsessing Security: Public Mood: anxious Music: Karl Jenkins - Adiemus

Or however the heck you spell that word.

Work again tomorrow, why is it that the weekends go by so quickly? maviscruet came round today to see Everquest 2. As an extra bonus, the non disclosure agreement for City of Villains has been lifted and the servers were open DURING THE DAY, so he was able to make a toon in all its infamous glory.

Very glad he came round, otherwise I'd be mulling over thoughts of various vaginal, cervical, ovarian and endometrial cancers! Oh yes, it's a possibility. I'm hoping the comment made by the doc that my insides look healthy, means that none of the above are an issue. Maybe it's just my hormones? Like it is for everything else? The teensiest sign of stress and they're all over the place.

I was told I'm going to Madrid on the 31st October. Number 1 problem, it's Samhain, the end of the year, probably one of the most important dates in my calendar. If I miss this one, it's the second festival date I've missed because of work. Number 2 problem, it's 2 days after I get out of hospital and I'm not sure I want the stress of going to madrid and organising an exhibition on my own.

To end on a humerous note, my stupid lazy twat of an ex-minion has taken to hiding from me (shock, maybe he feels guilty about doing NO work for 2 years on my project) He thinks he's being dead sneaky and clever and that I can't see him. See, thing is, I wrote that particular book on being sneaky and clever at work. We watch him scurrying about, he takes the back stairs at odd times. It's most amusing. I'm sure he's related to my ex-boss, how else could all of my formal complaints never get anywhere?

Grrrrrrrrrrrr

Date: 2005-10-15 23:40 Subject: Doctors Security: Public Mood: thoughtful Music: Vangelis - Memories of Green from Blade Runner

Back to the doctors on Wednesday. Got to see if my organs are working correctly. I reckon they are, surely I would feel ill otherwise? Right?

Get the results of some other tests in a weeks time. These are more vital tests.... Bit worrying, but I'm not thinking about it.

Date: 2005-10-15 23:37 Subject: Well.... Security: Public Mood: mellow Music: Vangelis - Love theme from Blade Runner

I've changed from the last time I took this test!



I am a A Spirit Dragon!

Hey, I took the http://dragonhame.com online Inner Dragon quiz and found out I am a Spirit Dragon on the inside.

In the war between good and evil, a Spirit Dragon tends to walk the fine line of Neutrality....
When it comes to the powers of Chaos vs. those of Law and Order, your inner dragon is a risk taker and answers to no one....
As far as magical tendancies, Magical spells come as natural to the Spirit Dragon as breathe from it's body....
During combat situations, a true Spirit Dragon prefers to defeat opponents by the use of spells and other tactics....
The spirit dragon is a true creature of chaos, it is very nomadic and goes wherever it pleases. Due to its non-corporeal nature, a spirit dragon moves freely anywhere and everywhere.'
A spirit dragon is a living mystery. They are barely visible to the naked eye, as their bodies are formed from the ghost-like material of the soul.'
A Spirit Dragon is nearly impossible to harm except by means of powerfully enchanted weapons and magical spells. The spirit dragon has no physical substance and cannot manipulate the physical world without the use of Spells and Magic. However, be warned that this does not mean the spirit dragon is of no consequence. They are masters of magic and take a large part in the happenings of the mortal world around them. They are often seen as puppeteers behind the stage of reality.
'
This Dragons favorite elements are: Soulstone, Hematite, and Wind

http://Dragonhame.Com

Date: 2005-10-14 08:46 Subject: Relieved that yesterday is over Security: Public Mood: relieved Music: (in my head I'm singing the Rasmus)

Thanks to all of the posts yesterday. I went to the doctors, she had a rummage around and I'm scheduled to have some more tests done at the LGI. I should get the result of one test by next week, so I'm kind of looking forward to that.

Got to go back to the doctors today, so I'm taking a half day off work.

Work.... it's very dynamic but oh so stressful. I sit next to the lady administrator of my Centre (industrial centre of particle science and engineering), and she's very stressed. We sit in silence, yesterday she spoke two sentences to me. The first, to say that if I pissed her off she'd murder me (her words), the second to moan at me because my phone was ringing while I was sending a fax to a client in the main office.

The day before, she spoke 3 sentences. All pissed off queries about why I hadn't given her what she'd asked for weeks ago. (I had, but she's a bit forgetful :) )

Ho hum. I've done the work of 2 other people this week, as well as my own. I'm looking forward to the weekend. I could have cried when my alarm woke me up at half 5 this morning. For one brief moment, I thought it was Saturday :(

Date: 2005-10-12 19:57 Subject: Very Very scared Security: Public Mood: scared Music: Nothing

Really really scared about going to the doctors tomorrow. There's the whole how do I get to it trauma, followed by where is the door trauma, where is the reception trauma, where do i sit trauma, how do they announce it's your turn to see the doctor trauma, where do you go when you've been announced trauma... and on and on.

And that's not including the seeing the doctor trauma and the what the heck is wrong with me trauma.

*sighs*